Wednesday, December 31, 2008

undefined.

Something went really wrong,and I don't know what it is. You ever get that nervous feeling when you dont know what to do anymore, and you don't even know why you're so finicky?  probly no... but i get this way sumtimes... its like, there's sumplace i might need to be, sum1 i'd wanna talk to, sumthing ive forgotten to do, sumthing i shouldn't have done, aaaaaaahhhh , feel like screaming,  but I don't know what,or who,or why or where or how . 
Its just this half-baked sort of feeling, u know.... a sense of incompleteness..... i mean, i know everything's going well with me right now....  but there's something that I can't put my finger on, that's bugging me. Like I just updated in my fcbook status (I have no fucking idea why I bother to do it), i sumhow can't sleep aaj... maybe its tomorrow's anxiety.. probly it is. I just can't sleep, and its doing all sorts of things to my head... i feel so fidgety... i dont wanna lie down,i dont wanna sit up, i dont wanna turn on the lights,i dont wanna be in the dark....  
what the fuck man, why do i have these tiny bouts of uncertainity? 

I think i'm a guy defined or rather undefined by my moods....  everything, absolutely every bloody thing for me depends on my mood...subconsciously or not. my music, my reading, my watching tv, the kind of food i eat, the way i behave ..... and now i'm wondering whether or not to put this write-up on the blog, u know, so people don't think i'm crazy...
doesn't matter though... just a handful read this freaking blog anyway...and they know me well. or so they would think.

i'm no social scientist, and i'm not even sure if that's a valid job, maybe just a make-belief one.... but i was once thinking about this thing, and i figured i should note it down..
people are unhappy. they just are. they always will be. they are bloody unsatisfied too, always yearning for more, for sumthing else, for that greener grass.  have you ever stopped and wondered why? well, being at the crossroads of life that i am, i'm like the stationary milestone who's watching everyone else rush past,absorbed in their own unimportant lives... 
anyhow, the point is... unhappyness is caused by dissatisfaction. It may be from anything.. dissatisfaction is caused by envy. yup, u heard me ENVY . everyone, atleast the mortals, ( laugh, ppl) are envious of something... their neighbours' bigger car, their friends' glam lifestyle, their boss' hot wife ... u get my point, don't you.  
Now don't get me wrong.... its perfectly natural..and true..for everyone of us...and it is this envy, that makes us do what we do. There is always a point or a position in life that we strive to achieve.... its upto us though, the way we do it.
There are two basic approaches to deal with this yearning...

First, you let the envy get hold of you, to the extent of making you unhappy, so you actively work towards your goal. 
Second, you get unhappy, you stay unhappy ... then you make up your mind that ure never gonna achieve that position anyway, and might as well be happy with the bird in hand. THIS, my friend, should finally push you into a state of stability ( if you're an optimist) or Stagnancy( if you think like a pessimist) ....and thus, you will stop trying to struggle, and force yourself to be happy.

Which one is the better path, i find myself thinking... should i continue to be unhappy, and keep struggling to get there? or should i just be happy and chill?  will it make me stable? or will it push me towards stagnancy?
Think about what you wanna do. Of course, for most of us the choice of the approach is inbuilt. as in its in ur genes, if ur a fighter, or if ur a content individual. A subconscious choice, rather. However, if you're one of the few people who can make an effort and choose, then go ahead . Wish you all the love and luck.

I think i need some love and luck too, while i'm talking about it. 
Did i ever tell you ( the "you" being the hypothetical creatures who read this) that i write to vent out? see, i was so unknowingly disturbed just a few minutes ago, and now i feel much more peaceful.... sleep's starting to set in too... I better say bye now... another day, another thought.
I really hope i have a good time tomorrow. 

mwah, love u mohit (self-support)
shut up, i don't mean it the kinky way!

Monday, December 8, 2008

quickie

[drum roll] .........
[running onto the stage]...
"Hulloooo all you lovely people ... a very good evening to all . Doing well, i hope..no? aah, not a problem, cuz THIS right here is your dose of .....[sound fading away]
aaaah, ive never really said that on stage u know, and somehow I really feel like doing it now!
the times I've been a compere were mostly judged ones... so generally it'd be "good evening bla bla bla..judges"  ... crap.
and i dont even know if there'll be a next time cuz college ended :(   ... mebbe sumwhere, sumtime...

"Aight" so here's the deal...  ive been doing nothing with myself... u heard me right, nothing!!
yeah sure, i'm learning java, I go to the gym(refer to previous entry) ...but that's just 4 freakin hours a day!  and to top it all, i've decided to watch 1 movie a day(some1 has to watch em, right, the poor ppl spend so much money on making em...might as well help out someone )
n the worst part is... i love it!
yup... i'm loving the chilling out feel ....there's this ..umm...tinge, to getting to know yourself better like this..i dunno, u wont understand probly, n i dont expect u to either.
but who cares, i'm having fun! 

however, there's a huuge downside to being idle...  see, when ur working, the only time you get to spend your dough is weekends.  However, when everyday's a weekend, then you have a problem! I definitely feel I'm bad with managing my money......  there it is guys, I said it aloud. 
I can't help it but, I love to spend !
but hey, everyone's allowed to have 1 weakness, right?  ;)
cheers to that!

Friday, December 5, 2008

berozgaar

probly u wudve guessed from the title.. i left my job!!! i dunno , but it feels both wierd and relieving at the same time..... wierd cuz all of a sudden, i have nothing to do, and relieving coz i have nothing to do! after 3 months of slogging my ass out there, i finally have some 'me' time again :D

To start off, i kinda wanted to make a list of the stuff i want (want being the keyword, doesnt necessarily mean that i actually do them) to do... lets see now.... i definitely want to catch up with some reading. I'd bought a couple of bestsellers last month, but just havn't had the time to sit down with 'em ..that time has come.
next in line is the gym. Somehow, all this while i hven't been able to persue the 'path to fitness' in continuation.. something or the other always comes up... lets hope this time's the one.
oh, i also reeeally want to get a tattoo.. i've wanted one for so long now...
Alex n I , who're both without a job aajkal, were thing of going to goa again for a bit... just the experience of the place is amaazing.... last time we guys were there, it was like magic... there's just no place like it..i'm sure those who'v been there will agree..

The events in mumbai last week were immensely depressing for all of us.. and i thought i must mention it... How dare they do such a thing? Do they fucking wanna start the crusades again? I dont't think extremism is going to help their cause, or any cause, for that matter.... Its like a chain reaction u know, an eye for an eye, and then more sightless people...and the crowd begins to grow. I pray to God to give the misguided a sense of direction .. I feel sad for the innocent targets and their families, and i pray for strength to them... It angers me, u know... to think how man is his own greatest enemy. Power and firearms in the wrong hands, and a twisted mind are just dangerous. I hope the global community unites its strengths for the cause of the people. Its always been true hasn't it, throughout civilisation...man has simply never been united. There have always been separate lands, different fiefdoms, my kingdom, your country.... and if people are dying of hunger in somalia, we do empathise, but we still need to have the annual tomato throwing festival , we still have to build lifesize displays made of oranges , we still need to throw away excess corn into the seas cuz there's simply so much, even after consumption , cattlefeed, corn festivals, export... no, why would we simply give it to them? .. something I can't understand. Even if not government-aly, atleast humanitarian-ly, NGO's can act as the SPM and allow this osmosis, from the excess to the deficient, possibly yes?

Coming to lighter topics, I was watching TV and this comedy show comes along...as is the TRP trend aajkal.... have any of you ever noticed how explicitly indecent the jokes are?? Barring a couple of performers, most just visibly try so hard to instill genitalia into their acts... is that like a sureshot way to the audience's applause? I mean sure, a few times, who cares, but EVERY damn line is like this over-tried attempt. But i just shrug and change the channel anyway...

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

abstract emotion.

One of the most unstable substances in the world , i feel, is human emotion....  it has no defined boundaries, nor does it have a set pattern of reaction to stimulus...  yes, we do classify psychology as study of the human mind and try to categorize emotions... but then again, can it really be done?
I personally don't think so... the fact remains that emotions can run wild, and be as tame as a pet, all at one time....  even with a single person, even though reactions are sometimes recurrant, emotions however are a definite variable.

why? is what i'd like to ask... why is it that we feel and emote in the way we do? would it have made things easier and life more defined if emotions,in their known form, were absent? not really is the answer that comes out...far from making our lives more defined, a lack of emotion would have made it confined instead.... like those of ants ...of course, it just may be that their emotions are plainly different from ours....  un-understandable...  like another metric system ;)

But yes, as someone put it, the mere existance of emotions and our capability to feel them is both, a boon and a bane . Why, this is what makes us who we are, doesn't it? Yup... to the unfamiliar eye, we are what our outer appearance tells them....  but when we develop personal familiarity, its how we emote ( to a great extent) that defines us.

Emotions are a different element, totally in their own league. They just cannot be defined... nor can they be accurately predicted ( what can be predicted is a reaction, not an emotion ) . That's what sets them apart...that's what fuels the intellectual evolution of our race .... that's what makes us... HUMAN.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

the novelist??

OH MY GOD !! I did NOT see this one coming... this time to that girl's gone over the edge... poor thing, i wish the best for her (for me too, while i'm at it )....in the meanwhile i'm also thinking of starting an alternate career as a novelist with my first book titled "My psychotic ex girlfriend" ;)
Anyhow, there comes a time in everyone's life when you can look back at what happened... and either laugh or scream out.... thankfully, i don't want to do the latter
This week was definitely one of the wierdest... and i actually was disturbed for a couple of days ( i can't believe i still let myself get worried over this oh-so-over-stretched "ykt" issue ...no more!) ... but April's point of view really made sense....its encouraging to know sumone you can turn to for logical answers to the wierdest of questions :D
n yeah, unlike my "killer" friend Alex, with me to its "Bachna Ae Hasino" upside down .... in case u haven't seen the flick, its got fun-fun-love , in that order... mere saath to u can reverse the order and u've got my story!

its funny u know, like all the times in college when my gang would be upto mischief ... i'd be the silent spectator....but still the warden would point the torchlight at me and say "Mohit , idhar aao !" yea, i dont know if its a boon or a bane, but i almost always get the limelight when people are to be pointed at....

thinking about it, i don't really remember why i wanted to write today .... i guess it just sorts me out... even if my readership's down in the dumps.... maybe i should add more glamour to this blog...atleast my guy friends would visit ... ha!
till the next impulse ... mwaah

PS: I know that none of the above has any trace of coherence whatsoever... but that's just me :P

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

And all that Jazz !

Hope all you guys had an amaaazing Diwali !!!!!

First, I have a confession to make .... I was a hypocrite this Diwali... for so many years now, ive been religiously following the "No crackers" campaign ... trying to do my part in protecting our environment.... but in a "moment of weakness" i shamefully admit that i did crackers this time ( head hanging down ) ... hey, stop grinning, #@$ ... it takes guts to admit your mistakes, remember !! when was the last time you publically confessed that you are a huuge fan of The Spicegirls ? yea, I just know...

So.....I decided to finally sit down and write... finally ... the diwali spirit was really not letting me do that! Although, i have to admit this Diwali really was great... for a host of intermingled reasons..
For starters, last year's "tensions" aren't that prevelant... time really does heal ;) ... apart from that, ive been out of town for work for the last couple of weeks... so i was just happy to be home !! and the other 2 reasons are because of 25th october, '08

25th october ???????  Isnt that what you'd think? its amazing how most of ur days go by without much happening, on the edge of being called drab even...and when things actually start to stir, everything seems to happen at once! ever felt that?
ok,so 25th.. the day was a definite biggie for me cuz it brought along two big "jhatkas", well in the good sense.... both professionally and personally...
Professionally, i got a call from my boss and he told me ive been promoted from my contract to a permanent company payroll ... and that after people had given me the impression that you're lucky if that happens even after 6 months of your contract... n ive been here for just two ! ( siiiiigh, i really am modest )
Personally... "ykt" ( u gotta know who that is, if u know me that well) called... out of the blue! how wierd is that? people just mushroom up when u stop expecting them to.... nehow, yes, i was pleased with the call, no doubt.... but skepticism was definitely on the fore ...
cuz oddly, after so long, i found myself with a dearth of grief inside....
but yes, i'm worried about where ykt is right now... i really am.... its like ur in a metro, u don't know anyone, u dont have a cellphone and i dont know if ur safe. and thats scary, from a humanitarian point of view...
i'm also kind of fed-up now... ykt, how long do u expect me to care? cuz ive made up my mind that there are only TWO explanations....
either
1) you're the queen of tragedies...literally...all the bad in the world affects you, and you only...and that's just really sad, if its right.
or
2) You're actually a SADIST.

Moving on to other things...
I'll tell you about ..ummmmm, lets call her Kim ... hahaha, ure gonna love the nic , "Kim" :P ..... so Kim n I have been talking a lot lately, and i thought i should mention her.... the nice part is that she's among the people who bring out my loquacious side...and that's just fun!
Ok, now kim has 2 really bugging habits... first that she calls everyone "bhaiya" which makes me feel OLD ..lol... second, she uses the word " jazz" a lot .... seriously , its funny! the usage of jazz, however, is highly subjective to personal whims ... it can be used as a substitute for a whole lot of words ... Let me illustrate :
Cool :                   " That guy's jazz "
Hot:                     " Woah,  jazzy..."
Happening :         " Jazz place"
Fun :                    " Let's talk about sumthing jazzy "
Fracas:                " That's some jazz we've got here"

hahaha... cute, isn't it ? Absolutely...JAZZY..or sumthing like that ! 

Thursday, October 9, 2008

absentee

true, wierd title for the post. but it kinda explains my whereabouts this past month... ive been an absentee!! yup, ive been missing out on a lot of things i was getting really used to... blogging, for instance . also lying around aimlessly , and general vella-panti ... sigh, those were the days..

its a problem thats gripped this year's engineering passouts gravely. the friggin software companies are simply not letting us in!!! consider my case. i got a campus placement with wipro and got a joining date of march '09 . wow... what exactly is it that we're supposed to do all this while? its a similar case with most of the major software firms...
there was an article in the paper today that stated students believe this postponed joining to be because of the global economy slump, but the software firms have attributed it to the large number of recruits that they're supposed to accomodate. so its just taking sum time. thats the reason why the programming section of my brain is still in suspended construction ;)

anywho... like ive been telling a lot of people, after lazing around for almost 3 months ( possibly the best ever ?!! ) i sadly decided to get off my ass and do something.. and thats how ive landed up working in this other firm. and believe you me, its a tough job... i mean, ive been regularly working the night shift, 13 hours a day for the past month, even on weekends!! to the extent that there's a part of me that actually misses the lazy mohit...
scene 1: wake up in the morning, read the paper till lunch , watch TV or read a book till the evening, go out, return for dinner, turn on the lappy and log on till i'd fall asleep
scene 2 : wake up at 6.30 in the eve, get ready n have dinner, go to work, come back to the hotel at 10 in the morning, bathe n have breakfast, sleep till 6.30 . n voila, we have scene 2 all over again.

but then again, the 13 hours that i'm working, i actually get absorbed totally... its like dope u know, work i mean.... work is like dope... it gets you high once it dissolves in ur bloodstream, and then all u think about is the dope ( which in this case is the work)
naaice.. so we've reached another of those 'moral of the story' ... work is like dope .... thinking more along the line,u know ur screwed when the billboard in ur mind lights up saying " dope is like work " ...cuz that would just squeeze all the fun out .

chalo then... till next time .... "up up and awaaaayyyyyy " .... (cape fluttering in the wind )

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

damn..

yea.... so finally got off my ass and started working...
sumthing really ticked me off today... it seems that we ( as countrymen ) are so used to being corrupt that any other way appears baffling....
i took sum xeroxes for the office and asked the guy to make a receipt.... the guy ws charging me 60p a copy, and he asks me " sir, 1 rupiya copy ke hisab se banau naa? "
and wen i refused, he looks up and gives me this puzzled expresion, as if almost saying " wtf man, r u fuckn stupid?? "
so sad that along with being lactose intolerant, we're prolly also honesty-intolerant... if there's no other euphemism for it..
in a hurry... just really wanted to write this..
cya

Friday, August 29, 2008

linbaba

no silly, its not another orange-clad guy on the idiot box ... neither is he an exclusive India TV "khoj" , which are becoming eerily commonplace and have more than often fought it out for the prestigious ( not! ) "breaking news" half hour slot...but that's for another time...
linbaba is a euphemism for the protagonist of a piece of literature that's kept me hooked on for quite a few days now... yup, u probably guessed it.. SHANTARAM ..
To say the least, an amaazing book... one that made me sit on the edge of my seat at times and took me through the joys n sorrows of the author almost as if they were my own.

Na, i'm not really about to write a book review...i don't think i'll do justice to the book if i do...
wat i am going to write though, is this one passage that really got to me.. and i felt it answers a lot of questions..
So this one's for you mohit..

" You can't kill love. You can't even kill it with hate. You can kill in-love, and loving, and even loveliness. You can kill them all, or numb them into dense, leaden regret, but you can't kill love itself. Love is the passionate search for a truth other than your own; and once you feel it, honestly and completely, love is forever. Every act of love, every moment of the heart reaching out, is a part of the universal good; it's a part of God, or what we call God, and it can never die. "

Touche.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

woes of the written word

Chatting on the net and texting on the cellphone has really screwed up our spellings. Its worse with kids who've been born in this word-compression age, compared to those who've grown through its development ( me, for example) . There's an ongoing debate in the british educational system over allowing students to use "sms english" in examinations, and encouraging teachers to ignore spelling mistakes.
what the hell, a few days ago a report came out confirming that indian kids are better than british ones at english, grammatically, and we're all so happy!! but we should be just a little bit wary of the seeming ease of cutting up a word, and being smug with maximal usage of the available number of characters in an sms... it could cause de-development of our written language!

There's times when i admonish myself...times when i see something amusing, and the voice in my head says "LOL" ....
To illustrate, i'll tell you what my typing habits include:
bout: about
rembr: remember
wen: when
agn: again
srly: seriously
tak: talk
awsm: awesome
wtf: umm, not really..
and so on.... even though it seems to me as hap in the virtual world, i pray that this new-age version of shorthand doesn't become a legitimate language, which by the way a few people at high places have discussed...
imagine what it would be like, if that happened...

- Da Tyms of Indya
Brkng nws: Da trst vte sessn commncd dis morn in the parlmnt.....
You know what the scary part would be? I'm sure i'd be able to read the above styled newspaper...and so would you.

possibly true?

i came across this article that i thought was hilarious (although it has a masculine intone)... and i wanted to share it. Here goes..

----> 10 reasons why studying is better than sex:
1. You can usually find someone to do it with.
2. If you get tired, you can stop, save your place and pick up from where you left off.
3. You can finish early without feelings of guilt or shame.
4. When you open a book, you don't have to worry about who else has opened it.
5. A little coffee and you can do it all night.
6. If you don't finish a chapter, you won't gain a reputation as a 'book teaser' .
7. You can do it,eat and watch TV all at the same time.
8. You don't get embarrassed if your parents walk in.
9. You don't have to worry about satisfying the book.
10. If you aren't sure of what you're doing, you can always ask your roommate for help.

Moral of the story: Study hard!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

The blog pimp

I can't say if you've heard of this.... but there's an urban myth about a creature so strange and arcane that nothing in the modern world even comes close to being shielded from it. It walks on the streets, in light and dark both, looking for fresh prey... another innocent being, befouled by the horrendous creature, lured into its demonic web, wrapped in the fibres of sin.
Just like the tales from dracula, the once angelic, unaware life immediately starts getting satiated with the darker side of life, pleasured by the black deeds, hunting down more to form its own kind.
That night, arnold was sitting at the cafe, minding his own buisness, like he does generally, playing a game of chess on his notebook and sipping his favourite cuppa . What he wasn't aware of was that an out-of-towner was sitting in the same cafe that night, corner table,black overcoat hanging from the chair,his scarred face hidden under the guise of dim light, the eyes that never twinkled affixed on arnold, scanning and registering every move he made, from the way he held the coffee mug, to the brows that lifted when he lost to the computer...everything taken in by the steely eyes. A smile was forming on the parched lips as a serpentine tongue licked them. After a long wait, he got up from his chair, not making any sound as he glided over the wooden cafe floor till he was right behind arnold.... a slender arm emerged and with a bony hand on his shoulders, arnold, like many ill-fated denizens before him, heard the raspy voice.... "hey, did you read my blog yet?"

ok ok, i admit it, i went a wee bit over the edge back there, but thats what ive been doing now and then, no not the cafe scene ( for all you freaks out there, its wasnt a true story!)... one of the most important parts of starting a new venture is the advertising...u know what they say, out of sight, out of mind... and with so much to do online for everyone, there's a really slim chance that they'll be checking out my oh-so-worked-on blog!! so i decided to take matters in my own hands.. i advertise for my own self ..ha!
from downright pressurizing my buddies into reading it, ive even sent scraps, meandered around a casual chat on gtalk to the point where i mention " oh btw, check out my blog will you? "...its all a well planned marketing strategy. And no, if ure thinking of mentioning it to me, i'm NOT ashamed of myself ... pretty much snubbed out my conscience when it comes to the blog ;)
to top it all, i once had "check out my blog" as a nic on orkut and my status on fcbook.. the cat's really far out of the bag now huh?
You know, i read somewhere "the only people who read blogs are those who write them too" and i'm pretty sure its true... but ive taken it upon myself to broaden everyone's view about literature... so next time you come in touch with me, don't go "oh man, not again" , cuz you deserve the good things in life, and my love, i'm giving it to ya!

Friday, August 8, 2008

One world, one dream

Right, slogan of the mother of all shows , or in funnier terms, "khelon ka mahakumbh" (seriously now, i didnt make it up)....The (Beijing) olympic games ! I'm sure the event is goin to be awsome, complete with all the glory, fame, celebration and grandeur the name "olympic"carries ...and like all my fellow countrymen (i'm sure) am reeally hoping that india gets some medals!!!!
I was watching discovery the other day and they were showing their series on the Beijing olympics .. omg! the Bird's Nest stadium is like sooo amazing ... China's invested something close to 40 million for its preperations for hosting this mega event... this one scientist, developed a chip and has been going around all of beijing , planting special transmitters so the ppl can watch the games on the move. seriously, the show left me thinking how long it could be before India hosts something like this... or more so, will it ever be able to?? I sure hope we can... the chinese have stopped all types of manufacturing around Biejing to reduce the smog...they also hired swiss firm omega to make the lasrgest display screen in the world! its housed in the bird's nest stadium ... the dragons really wanna leave their mark... whatever they may be ( not discussing that abhi), the chinese surely know how to throw a party !!! .......( which includes my fascination with the female athletes posing nude for a "good cause", which for the record i totally support , this swimmer posed only with her swimming gogs...hot!)
n oh guys, another interesting fact... in the last olympic games, each athlete was given 51 condoms on arrival...and another lot had to be flown in soon, when the stocks dwindled ... the olympic village sure gets cozy eh? good in a way , cuz we're all for world peace ! Make love, not war \m/ \m/ !!

n u know a rly good part about it? the starting date! three fat ladies, as they say, .. 08/08/08 !! looks sweet? Heh, well apart from the obvious oomph and rarity, the date holds a lot of significance , numerologically, in many cultures... standing as the number of jesus, in christianity, for example... although, indian divine sciences give it no real significance of any kind. I read that couples are fighting for spots to get married today and expecting parents to get a spot in the maternity ward...
for me, the day holds a personal significance too.... i started going to the gym ... again! ( i saw that grin ..shut it) ... hehe, hope this time its more regular... atleast i have "numerological -warmth", if there's such a thing, with me! Hey, if it can work wonders in bollywood, i'm sure my fitness is right around the corner... see, already the voice in my head's telling me " relaax dude, its a great day to start with.. now all u have to do is work less and let the gods deal with it" .. bad idea??

Thursday, August 7, 2008

The moth-to-fire syndrome.

A few months ago, i was talking to my friend april ( name changed for security purposes :P ) and our conversation took a really deep turn... and thus we came up with the theory that describes what i like to call " the moth-to-fire syndrome".
Unlike general abnormalities, this syndrome is inherent in man.. woven into the fabric of life. Even though some might say that it doesn't apply to them, it does, they just have to look deep inside, honestly.

The thoery goes like this ... man is subconsciously attracted towards danger , simply put.
Lemme elaborate ...
consider sports... F1, X-games, nascar are just a few examples where the sport might turn out to be deadly for the player. Apart from golf, the sports with the greatest amount of dough involve possible threats to the player's well-being.
Not convinced? ok, i'll take an example closer to our hearts... heartbreak. Did any of you ever notice, that a random person that we might get attracted to or get into a relationship with almost always has a personality quite the opposite to ours ( that's the usual case, atleast)? think about it. Eventually what we say about the situation is " opposites attract, remember? "
For example, in every relationship, there'll be 1 person who's the dominant one, the other who's submissive ( and i don't mean it in a conscious or perverse way) cuz the relationship will never work out if both the ppl are dominant by demeanour.

I hope you see where i'm pointing at ... its almost as if nature's written off a piece of itself in our being ( read magnetic poles ) . Hasn't man always looved doing what was taboo ? the apple of wisdom , remember that?
I know i haven't put it down incredibly well, but i hope april will do a better job at it... will post the link here ...
n hey, I won't ask you to stay away from trouble , cuz that's where the fun's at babe !!

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

arbit... just wanted to write..

very often, you find yourself looking at something that you can't do anything about. it can be a lot of things for a lot of people... a small kid begging, a road accident, a failing relationship, whatever.... and you say to yourself " i wish things could have been different" or " if only i could help " ... its true, atleast I often find myself thinking about it.... but then again, there's nothing one can do, atleast not immediately .
one of the things that saddens me the most is the plight of old people who're often forced to spread their hands in front of complete strangers, even if theyre 3 times younger....
why? why is it that there's so much sadness around? was it always meant to be, the balance between good and evil, joy and sorrow?
all said, the world isn't a happy place.... nor is it a sad one at that.... in fact i believe there's no absolute here... everything's relative. some places are more beautiful than others... some people appear happier than others ... all relative. it's almost as if relativity is in continuity between the physical and the meta-physical.

there once lived a man who dared to question belief... who dared to think beyond what was thought ... i use the word dare because not everyone has the courage to be different, and show it ...... perhaps you need to be drunk for it.... anyway, this man never had it easy, it was never a cinch to profess difference .. but he continued to do so... along his path, he met many friends, even more enemies... but to the people who were with him, he was their light, hope.... their guru.

everyone needs a guru... it doesnt matter what they do, what path they desire to follow... everyone needs their source of light... its a fact that incomplete information is deadly. It applies to everything from kiddie science experiments in skool ( where a guru is required to oversee that the salts aren't eaten and the acids aren't drunk ) to business ( where trade and the related tricks are essential to avoid a light pocket) to yoga ( where every asana has an anti-asana and if both of them arent balanced, ure screwed quite literally). I must warn you though...there are a lot of people who'll appear to be gurus and very few who actually are... choose well or they'll take you down with themselves.

i know, ure probly thinking about what happened to the guy in the previous paragraph... nuthing really... all he tells us is that it takes guts to follow your dream....
and that heavy drinking in the afternoon leads to completely unrelated paragraphs in your blog .

i don't really know what to make of this write up, but thats about it for now... maybe the next one will be more concrete..

mwaaaaah

Thursday, July 24, 2008

what if ?

ever wondered about something that is beyond the ordinary? ever thought about why things are what they are, and what would have been, had there been a different reality?
Perhaps the whole world really does circle around you.... u know, the whole " kayanaat" dialogue from shahrukh's OSO... what if it was true?

here i am, trying yet again to learn the intricacies of programming, when a thought crossed me ( yea, the word daydream is considerably apt here ) ..... does everything around us actually exist? or is it just a part of the universe's attempt to put us in its centre.... what if the ancient concept of maya is actually not a concept, but a stark reality?
i know, there's a lotta people who've said a lotta stuff about this.. everyone daydreams once in a while, right? even great minds....

the other day i was watching travel n living n this punk, tattood skate-boarder turned out to be the only living descendent of albert einstein.... the only similarity being the hairstyle....
do things here have a purpose? is it true that everyone's here for a particular reason... the thing they call destiny.... ive heard a lotta stories of people trying to "fulfill their destiny" ... but i never really got to know what becomes of them AFTER they fulfill it.... do they retire in the lap of luxury or sumthing?

anyway, this random splashing of words started when i looked into the mirror one day..... and i asked myself... what if there was a parallel universe? another world, just like this one....one where there was another me.... looking exactly the same... and what if mirrors are a window to that world.... maybe the mohit looking back at me from in there is also thinking the same thing, and is equally absorbed in his daydream... which is probably connecting our minds in a para-cosmic environment, where the boundaries between the universes dissolve.....
maybe there are no doors between these parallel universes... or probly no 1 has found any...yet....

n zap! i'm back at my study table.... refreshed from the immensely absorbing and galaxy-skipping trip .... i drone on, again....

PS: i just ask what if... whatre u still looking at this for? there are NO answers... yet.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

my first time

oh stop snickering, perv.... i'm not talking about "my first time" on a blog! not right now atleast [evil grin]
acha, now that i have your attention, Hi.
welcome aboard ... today we're gonna sail out to the open waters of the written word... so hang on!

naa... just trying to be over-dramatic ... wait naa.. don't go already!
like all good hosts i'm gonna show you around my place ( my page, that is) since this is ur first visit... i'm indian.. u know what we say " atithi devo bhavah".. or sumthing like that.. but as the modern saying goes, "atithi devo bhav-ah, but if he/she's an ass, kick 'em out-ah" .. pseudo-sanskrit, i know....
shut up! no, i'm not "such a wannabe" ... :P
so where was i...

aah yes.. my page...
hey, if amitabh can do this n if aamir can bitch about salman being his "pappu" on a blog... i thought i'd start my own too!
but seriously... there's 2 basic reasons why i thought about this..
1) Boredom... in its elemental form- so pure that a hibernating polar bear has more fun probly.
2) Curiosity. They say it got the cat screwed.. well.. i have my fingers crossed too...

so the first thing u'd notice about my page is the quote under the title , right? prolly cuz its green... now, Diego is sumone from ice age.. thats all i have to say.. if u havn't heard of him... well, get a life loser..

The overall colour of the page, u'd notice, is kinda mellow... with little interruptions of contrast... sorta like me... i'm definitely not sum1 whom u can describe in one mood....

another section, that i really like, is the " Mohit's do-it-yourself Enlightenment" .. yea, here ure gonna get lil tidbits of gyan , straight from the horse's mouth... wow, are u guys lucky or what?
( for those of you who're thinking about how many years in jail they'd have to spend for murder justified by a good reason, its a lot! so put your raam-puris bak in :P )

There's an about me section, which is probly not very helpful... kinda confusing if i hadn't been me... but oh well... leave a comment , i'd appreciate it..

Last, i'd like to mention the poll that i'm gonna hold... jokes apart, these are gonna be topics that i feel strongly about... do give a vote.. theyre precious remember?

i'd also like to tell you a short incident that had an impact on our lives (figuratively speaking).. atleast those of us who've survived 4 years in that hostel ( freedom, at last! )
a friend's uncle is in the merchant navy... this one time he was at a sailor's bar in russia and there were people from a lot of different nationalities... when it came to the customary toast, ( which is made before you begin to drink) everyone said it aloud in their own language... but as everyone knows, we guys use the word "cheers" too, in india.... so our protagonist looked everyone in the eye, and instead of the word that we've adopted from other people, he said..... "piyo bhenchod! " and that remained the phrase on everyone's tongue that night.... and still is, for a lot of us....
so the next time you pick up your beer remember, there's no place like india... "piyo bhenchod!"

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