Sunday, May 17, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Sunday, May 3, 2009
There seems to be no end, no beginning, no start
My lips seemed to have been permanently sealed
Don’t know how to express the way I feel
Unspoken words, buried in my heart
They lock my doors of normal speech shut
I seem to be trapped in this lonely prison
Where I live as a tormented soul that has not yet risen
People don’t care whether I’m here or there
It’s always the same, wonder why I care
Cruel taunts, teases and jeers
Hurt my feelings, increased my fears
All I ever received were barbs and sneers
Sometimes I just can’t hold back the tears
What did I do to deserve this?
They only know how to make fun of me
What is the revolting thing in me that I’ve somehow missed?
Surely they can tell so I can know and see?
Maybe ending my life will cure this pain
This living hell that’s making me insane
Just one jump into the deep blue sea
Will end my sufferings, my memories ..
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Hey people.... I'm so sorry if I've been letting you down lately....I know I'm letting my self down for sure! :((
This inability to multi-task is really getting the worst out of me...... So the scene is... I've been busy the last month..... finally got the kinda work I wanna do..... and well, its hectic right now.... and the sad part is, it's made me lose touch with things I like ... writing on the blog .....and reading !
Yea, I've seen "voracious readers" ... reading their authors in cabs while going to office, or in buses..... but that's just not me... I really can't do that... reading in a moving vehicle makes me dizzy..... plus, I'm so damn exhausted that by default I make optimal use of my travel time.... sleeping!
There are so many times when I come back home, determind to write a post here.... but I sumhow can't muster the strength for it... I don't want writing here to be another CHORE... It makes me happy when I write... and I wanna write by my own schedule. Its just that I feel left out somehow....
What can I do? I don't wanna be just another drab guy who has no life of his own other than the one his boss gives him.
Leaving out that part... I'm gonna share something really special here right now... My all time absolute favourite romantic song.... I try not to listen to it a lot, cuz its only for the special occasions...or else it'll lose its charm, na? It's called "I wanna spend my lifetime loving you" ...the title track of Zorro..... by Marc Antony and Tina Arena.
Hope it touches you in the same way it touched me......