Thursday, February 10, 2011

insecure?

Do you ever think you know yourself? Do you ever feel there's a lot more to explore? Do you ever feel scared and try to take refuge in noise?

I'm not too cool right now..... nor do I feel it.... you would think I come here to sulk and while away inadequacies..... maybe its true... maybe its not.

I'm not good enough to be a professional here, I'm not hot enough to be cool.....I read this and feel like a teenage girl with acne before a party.... but I'm none of those.

Its just that there are worlds unexplored, emotions unsaid...... and even though we try to make things easier by getting psyched, I don't know what the other end's thinking.....

I love the curiosity of what's going to happen.... I hate the helplessness of now.....Its time to be a friend, but aren't there more than enough already? That just leaves acquaintance and random calls from afar....

You'd read this and go blank maybe.... speak to me now and you'll know exactly where the dots connect.....

Don't let it change, please.......then again, it already did..... maybe it'll be easier this way.