
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Download mp3s... minus the usual crap !

Sunday, May 3, 2009
Guest post 2 !
with every smile that I give
That's the life that I live
I tried to fool myself and hide behind my dreams
I Tried to make everything as simple as it seems
But deep inside, there were thousands of bursting tears,
with every smile that I used to give
that's the life that I live
Ended up with a broken heart,
ended up with my life ripped apart.
Ended up left alone in the darkness,crying,
Gave up and just quit trying..
ask yourself in silence someday-
are you not in search of darkness?
A place where light used to be..
now no more.
now is peace, four walls, curtains,
and just darkness.
I'm running away frm the darkness
that seems to follow me wherever I go...
suffocating me when I try to break freee..
holding me when I try 2 push it away...
i see light at a distance..but the more I walk towards it..
the smaller it becomes
I shiver as I see it coming to me again
I don't know what to do..
So I keep running....
never before
has darkness seemed so powerful,
so pure,
so convincing,
so lethal.
Yes,
i am in search of
a darkness...
in its own light..
Guest post !
There seems to be no end, no beginning, no start
My lips seemed to have been permanently sealed
Don’t know how to express the way I feel
Unspoken words, buried in my heart
They lock my doors of normal speech shut
I seem to be trapped in this lonely prison
Where I live as a tormented soul that has not yet risen
People don’t care whether I’m here or there
It’s always the same, wonder why I care
Cruel taunts, teases and jeers
Hurt my feelings, increased my fears
All I ever received were barbs and sneers
Sometimes I just can’t hold back the tears
What did I do to deserve this?
They only know how to make fun of me
What is the revolting thing in me that I’ve somehow missed?
Surely they can tell so I can know and see?
Maybe ending my life will cure this pain
This living hell that’s making me insane
Just one jump into the deep blue sea
Will end my sufferings, my memories ..
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Touched.
Hey people.... I'm so sorry if I've been letting you down lately....I know I'm letting my self down for sure! :((
This inability to multi-task is really getting the worst out of me...... So the scene is... I've been busy the last month..... finally got the kinda work I wanna do..... and well, its hectic right now.... and the sad part is, it's made me lose touch with things I like ... writing on the blog .....and reading !
Yea, I've seen "voracious readers" ... reading their authors in cabs while going to office, or in buses..... but that's just not me... I really can't do that... reading in a moving vehicle makes me dizzy..... plus, I'm so damn exhausted that by default I make optimal use of my travel time.... sleeping!
There are so many times when I come back home, determind to write a post here.... but I sumhow can't muster the strength for it... I don't want writing here to be another CHORE... It makes me happy when I write... and I wanna write by my own schedule. Its just that I feel left out somehow....
What can I do? I don't wanna be just another drab guy who has no life of his own other than the one his boss gives him.
Leaving out that part... I'm gonna share something really special here right now... My all time absolute favourite romantic song.... I try not to listen to it a lot, cuz its only for the special occasions...or else it'll lose its charm, na? It's called "I wanna spend my lifetime loving you" ...the title track of Zorro..... by Marc Antony and Tina Arena.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TfTvY7w3JZI&NR=1
Hope it touches you in the same way it touched me......
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Readers' Paradise
Well, not books exactly but my reading style, book preference, bookstore choice... blah blah blah... u'll see...
I have half a mind to start with the ONE line that i've seen soo many people start their debates with.....
" The oxford dictionary defines books as.... "and I hate it when someone says that.... I mean, where's the innovation?? why does everyone say the same stuff?
Anyhow..... I've always liked reading... ever since I can remember.... although, its been on and off kinda..... as a kid, I used to love comic books.... my mom even got our newspaper waala to deliver the new releases of each week at home. So yea... lots of comic books..... I grew a little and started feasting on the short stories.. Enid Blyton and stuff ...The most memorable part was when I would get my English literature books at the start of a new academic year ...I'd read the entire thing in a couple of days! ...siiiigh... how I love the smell of newly printed books... its so... Inviting.
I have no other words for it....
I'd loved issuing books from the school library.... NO, I never read the hardy brothers or any such crap... I was more into Dr. Doolittle , classics and the likes.... I'd come home... not study the entire day... just read. Occasionally my Dad asked me why I wasn't doing coursework, and left after I didn't come up with a good enough answer. "Dad, I like this. Schoolbooks are boring. " .... "Dad, he just found a chair with wings... I need to know the next part!" ..... and so on...
Then came the Harry Potter era. I think I was in the 9th when the first one released.... suddenly, all everyone was talking about involved this book rising in popularity charts... Newsflashes depicting incidences of overcrowded bookshops (Nope, India TV wasn't there yet, The phrase 'Breaking News' wasn't used for everything.) were on TV .And so I got my hands on the first HP book... and I absolutely loved it !!!
You know, I noticed something lately...
Blogs have this awesome quality ....making the author seem larger than life.... whatever the topic of writing. Seriously..... think about it....
I admit that I'm not as voracious a reader as I'd like to be. But that's just me ( refer to the blog title if ure too thick !).... I sometimes don't get my hands on a book for months at a stretch if the situations are such. Last month , on the other hand, I read 3 different ones...
The white tiger ( the man booker...why??), Shalimar the clown and A fine balance ( WOW !)... I travelled a lot that time, actually... so I read a lot too ! One of my favourite places to read in is the window seat on a train . Its just so comfy, reading while everything rushes past.... Thats for another day, though ......

I sometimes daydream about having an incredibly well furnished reading room with a La-Z-boy and a huge book shelf. Other times the room gets converted into a gaming zone with a PS 3, a pool table, a foozball table and a pinball machine... the La-Z-boy stays put though ;)
About Bookshops... which one's your favourite? If ure in delhi... Om book shop maybe? Oxford? I have a preference here too.... See, even though I love the sight of so many books, the humongous bookstores don't really appeal to me. What do, though, are small, cozy bookshops.... You know, the ones in corners ( no, not the porno collection... jeez .. !) ... those that you would've missed probably while walking past.... those that don't necessarily send pamphlets about sales to ur doorsteps..
I was in a city called Jalandhar last month when I came across a similar bookshop. I wouldn't really have noticed it if my cousin hadn't pointed it out... " hey, u like to read na... check that out."
The first thing that struck me was the sign board displaying the name. "Readers' Paradise" .... I smiled looking at the apostrophe at the correct location, after the "s" in "readers"..... "Finally! " I said to myself.. "A signboard with correct grammar!"
I went in and noticed piles of books on the sides.... immediately the smell hit me with that same nostalgia of settling down with a paperback ( I never could take to reading ebooks... uuggghh ) .... There was a middle aged guy sitting behind the counter , reading something.... I looked around a little and noticed he didnt have any trashy stuff... just good, readable ones..... I had been hearing about this author called 'Rohinton Mistry' for a while, and wanted to get one of his works.... so I asked the counter guy about him and he had 2 of the guy's books. I chose one.... in the meantime I was chitchatting with the guy... turns out he was actually the owner of the shop.... said he never wanted to have a large bookshop, just a good one like this... quality over quantity kinda thing....
Oh n yea.... funny thing... every 2 minutes, someone would walk in asking for a box of pencils, a packet of A4 sheets, pens etc etc...... After refusing the 5th person to ask him, he said to me .."you know, there's a sign behind the counter that says NO STATIONARY....I thought people read...."

Sunday, April 12, 2009
The incompetent camera's efforts at redemption.
I like clicking pictures.
To the innocent, this seems like a harmless sentence.... " So, u like clicking pictures... cool, grab a camera, CLICK! "
For the "worldly-wise" , this simple sentence metamorphoses into a cluster of counter- inquisitions:
- why?
- hmm, what kind of pictures? (some morons might even have a smirk by this time)
-You got a camera? What kind is it?
-Does it earn you any money? (if yes, they might wanna buy a camera too...thats the next question)
finally......
- Will you click mine? ---on clicking---oh, show me show me!
Anyhow, I'm not keen on answering any of the above....
Here's some random stuff that I clicked :


I like to think of this as rising above boundaries.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Ghar ki murgi...
no, I haven't gone berserk, I'm just laughing! Its just that as soon as I clicked on the ' new post' tab, this self-morphed slim shady stanza began playing in my head.... instantaneously .. here's how it goes..
na na na na na.... na na na na na..... na na na na na.... na na na na na ...
Guess who's back?
Back again..
Mohit's back ..
Tell a friend ..
guess who's back ...guess who's back ...guess who's back (deepening)
no!!! not lame, it really is funny... sing it in the tune.....well, makes me laugh anyway...
Have you ever thought about the adages that've been supposedly passed down from generation to generation? well, this thing happened with me, and I realised how much the situation befitted a particular proverb...
here's what happened..
You know how Adidas n Reebok have this bi-annual 40% off sale? A few months back,one friday, this particular sale was on, and I was generally browsing through the stock... just then, dark clouds blocked out the sun and thunder started rolling across the skies. I walked out of the store and to my astonishment, the clouds were concentrated only over the store that I had been in... also, fire breathing dragons with saddles and armoured, horned creatures with medieval weapons riding them were flying straight towards me.... one of them fired a flaming arrow at me, and all I could do was cover my ears in the frightening thunder ... I fell over , overwhelmed, and noticed the shop number... and that's when it occured to me, and I smiled at the newly gained knowledge of why I was 2 inches away from gruesome death... the shop number was 13.... Friday the 13th... I should never have come out shopping.

naaaaa..... In case uve closed your eyes and covered your face in anticipation of my untimely demise, revel in the knowledge that I was exaggerating a bit. Well, I totally made that up!!! (I'm sure you would've guessed that by now...in case u hadn't, GROW UP !)
I dunno what got into me back there... I really was gonna go on with my sale story, when I started imagining...
anyhow... so as I was saying... the 40% sale was on, and I'd gone to the store with my bro to look for shoes for him.... next thing I know, I'm looking at this GORGEOUS pair of basketball shoes with silver streaks on black..... and on 40% discount !! SCREW IT, I said to myself... and we walk out the store with the shoes in my hands ( nope, my bro didn't find anything 'gud enuf ' ). So what had been intended to be a shopping visit for my bhai's feet, turned out to be an impromptu pampering for mine!!!!
Fast forward a few months......
I'm wearing my oh-so-sexay shoes and I'm browsing through another adidas store....
on the high shelf, I spot them again.... brand new, shining... even the same size as mine... the exact same pair...looking at me from up there. I walk up, lift the shoe from its podium.... look it up and down... examine it.... everything identical.... look at the price... yup, I did get 40% off.... and I realise that the shoes aren't talking to me anymore !! - You know that feeling? or maybe ur just not the 'shoe type ' - like they did the first time I saw them....
I look around, keep the shoe back on its podium... go left and pick up a snazzier pair of ball shoes, complete with plastic and springs and all...
and the voice in my head calls out........ "Now that's what I call SEXY !!"
I was thinking about this today, and I realised that I know a hindi proverb that fits the situation perfectly!
--- Ghar ki murgi daal barabar ! --
Literally translated : -- Hen of the House equals Lentils-- ( clever, I know :P)
In English, it means You never appreciate what you already have .
I guess our forefathers were pretty bright, eh? ;)




